Sunday, September 9, 2012

tender moments and passion

Hi my lovlies.

So, recently I've been super sensitive and wanna cry at like every tender thing I see. 
I don't know if it's because I moved to Utah and the mountain air messing with me, or if I'm becoming one of "those girls". Let me just give you a couple examples as to what I'm talking about.

1. I went to the Brigham City Temple open house with some friends. As we were walking through, like obvis I teared up a little because I was in the temple and I felt the spirit. BUT, when I was driving on the way home, I noticed another temple in the distance and I started to cry.... like who cries when you LOOK at a temple? I mean yeah, they are gorgeous and it's the house of the Lord, but come on..just looking at them should not make you wanna cry. Weird.

2. So, my major is Elementary Education and I'm taking this Foundations of Education class. It's two and a half hours long and my professor is a lawyer who loves to talk, especially about politics and other things that prestigious lawyers love talking about. (I'm totes not bagging on lawyers by the way..my brother in law is one, and he's probs one of the coolest people I know) Anyways, after about an hour in, into the first class I knew this class was going to be long and one I would have to fight through. Well, class proceeded and my professor asked everyone to tell the class their name and why they decided to be an Elementary Ed major. I was the second girl to go and I said my name and then when I started to tell my reason as to why I want to teach and I was done. Then, I started thinking about why I actually wanted to teach more and more. As the other girls were saying their names and why they want to teach, I just couldn't help but tear up because all of their reasons were similar to my reasons and that I just can't wait to have my own classroom and have these little kids relying on me to teach them what they need to know and see them be proud of themselves and watch them grow and progress into our future leaders of America. Too cheesy?..well, like I obvis don't care because I literally am so excited to teach.

I AM THAT GIRL. You know, the girl in class, or where ever the heck she is,  when she starts talking about something that means a lot to her, she starts to cry. I couldn't believe..and still can't believe that this is happening. Like maybs, it's just a stage I'm going through and I'll soon grow out of it. Let's hope so, because I do not want to go through life crying at every little dang thing. Like, what if I have a little girl and we are on a walk in the park and she picks me a flower and says, "I picked this flower for you mommy!" and even if it's just a dandelion, I start to cry, because I'll think that it was the sweetest thing. OMG. Let's only hope it's a stage.

Anyways..moving on.
Also, bare with me. I swear I'm almost done.
It's chill.

So, I read this cute blog post yesterday and I liked it, so naturally I'm gonna tell y'all about it.
This girl says how college is a major point in our lives. It really is. It's where we decide things that are going to affect the rest of our lives.........
Uh, so I don't know about you, but it scares me to think that me, my 20 year old self is going to make decisions that are going to stick with me for the rest of my life. Hot dang, that's cray.
But listen, I'm totally okay with that because;
1. I know that my Heavenly Father is with me 100% of the way, and that He will not lead me astray.
&
2. I have some pretty amazing parents who are here to council and guide me. And believe me, they are pretty good at knowing what is best for me..even if I don't think so at the moment. And they are my best supporters.

This girl said, "Do what you want, figure it out. Then once you are happy, you can make other people happy; once you find your whole self you can give your heart to someone else."
So, I just need to relax and find what I really want to be and what I want out of life. I think it's important to find your passion and what makes you happy and stick with it. 
Of course there are going to be things that make us happy temporarily, but you have to look deeper and find those eternal joys that will make you happy forever!
Eternal joys. That's what is most important.

Well, I think it's time to wrap this up.
I love you lover doves and I hope your lives are full of passion and joy.
And if you aren't there yet, it'll come.
Heavenly Father is good, so good, and He will help you through anything you are facing. 
(even if it's crying at every little tender moment that happens in your life)
But hey, pay attention to the small and simple things in life, like the stars or flowers.
Laugh at yourself.
Don't be afraid to try new things.
Go out of your way to say hi to someone..or maybs even your crush (yeah, I went there)
Have 20 seconds of some crazy insane courage. (this one is fun, I promise)
And remember to always call upon the Lord, because He will never let you down.

Y'all are amazing. Have a great week!

xoxo